where is my ground control...

I previously said that I see things getting back on track and expected life to look brighter in the following hours, days, weeks, or months. I was wrong...I was so terribly wrong. 2009 has only been here for a month yet it has been so terribly unkind to me. It makes me wonder if I've done anything to deserve this...I'm quite sorry if I did.

I got some terrible and harsh news earlier this week. As I previously mentioned, I got my ear pierced and it was causing a lot of pain. On Tuesday I decided that I didn't want to deal with this pain anymore so I chose to go to the clinic. After waiting 3 and a half hours (with no music or cellphone because my iPhone was dead!!!) I got called into the doctor's office. The doctor, an arrogant son of a bitch, checked out my ear and told me I had cellulitus. It's not the unattractive craters women get on their legs so this little monster could not be healed with Nivea Good Bye Cellulite cream. Cellulitus is an infection of the different layers of inner skin that is characterized by red skin, burning sensation, rapid swelling. Hearing this was already a blow to my emotional stability but to make the situation even better the doctor casually told me that I could die from this because it can turn into a meningitis. That's an infection of the membrane surrounding the brain, so you can imagine how shocked I was when I heard this.

I got home and things were not looking better. Long story short, I went to the hospital and was taken in right away. I didn't expect that I would be there for a long time, but I was wrong. After taking my piercing out, which was not enjoyable at all, I was given antibiotics through intravenous injections. I stayed two nights, two nights too many, in the hospital where I got the chance to meet a few interesting characters while I was there. Overall, my stay there was not pleasant due to the bad food, all the antibiotics I was on, the pain, the sleepless nights, the loneliness. Thankfully, I had two visitors, my mother and father, who kept me company and tried to keep my hopes up. I'm grateful to be at home with my own personal belongings that I've grown to appreciate more. I don't ever wat to be away from home like that ever again.

In all, January was a terrible month for me, hopefully all this negativity will fall behind with this month. I think I just need to set some goals and things to do for the next couple of months in order to keep myself occupied and always busy. It's time for me to hit the sack again...'till next time.

back to the routine

FIRST OFF...I'm sorry blog for being so lame and not writing. I've had a very painful week due to a new piercing which resulted in me being very unproductive towards everything. Hopefully, it will heal soon and I'll be back to my normal self. Damn you conch piercing and your complications!

Call me crazy, but I'm somewhat happy that I'm back at school. It feels nice to wake up and know you have something to do that day instead of wasting away at home. I get to eat at regular hours and follow my eating original eating habits (hopefully meaning that there will be more weight loss coming my way!!!). I'm looking forward to this semester because it is my last one and I think it will be one filled with learning experience and one where I'll have to make important decisions. I want to give a big thank you to one of my teachers, David Finch, who helped me open my eyes about the obstacles that are to come and what people are going to expect of me based on my field of studies. If you're reading this David-wouldn't be surprised if you were-thank you for being a great listener and such an inspiring person.

Things hit a low before but I think that they're slowly getting back on track. What goes up must come down, but that doesn't mean things always have to stay down. I took a momentary detour on my life path or simply put happiness, but now I'm on the right track again. Let's hope that nothing will stop me again from heading that way.

this is the little devil causing all of my pain

school=death of me

I have two weeks left of vacation and judging from the looks of my schedule I'll be taking advantage of them. One more semester of college and then it's over, then I'm off merciless reality. I'm looking forward to the things that are going to come in the next few months...maybe just not my 8 AM classes and maybe my never ending breaks.

rising from ashes

one too many pizza pockets, an injured liver, burnt brain cells, missing pieces of the puzzle, tons of pictures, some drama, funny situations, and a burning bathroom...and now I'm sitting here.

I'm sorry blog, for being so uncaring and not posting anything for a little period of time. I've had a pretty hectic week filled with lots of events.

I have to say that I had tons of fun on New Years and I am partied out for an undetermined period of time... It feels so nice to be able to party and not have to worry about driving everyone safely, working the next day, or limiting myself because I have to come home where my parents will see me in an unstable state. I think it was a party well deserved for me after my year and the things I've been through. I hope 2009 brings many positive things and most importantly a lot of life lessons.

I was greeted by what you could call a not so pleasant surprise when I got home from my four day getaway. After a long week away from home, I figured a nice warm shower in my CLEAN bathroom would feel really good...I was wrong. My washroom has (or should say, had) a small convenient heater in the wall to ensure that the bathroom was nice and warm while you would shower. I turned this heater on before taking my shower and went back to doing my things. Half an hour later I heard a weird noise and my first reaction was to check the washroom...I opened the door and there was flames dancing together and growing across my bathroom walls. FLAMES!!!! Imagine facing flames after you've had a crazy week where you've barely slept and partied ridiculously. Thankfully, I did the right thing by calling 911 right away and making sure that the fire wouldn't spread. My house is fine, I'm alright and my parents are glad to know I'm alive...there are some damages, but it's better than not having a roof. If I would have waited five more minutes, according to a fireman, the kitchen would have caught on fire and the upstairs.

I think it was a sign, a sign that this year is all about appreciating what I have and living each day to its fullest. You never know when these things can happen or how quickly things can be put to an end. 2009 started out in flames, but hopefully it's like a phoenix...starting off as ashes and then turning into something strong and beautiful.

sorry liver. (HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!)

The new year starts in an hour and I couldn't be more glad to be with the people I'm with. The drinks keep on coming and everyone is in a great festive mood.

I'm pretty fucked right now so please excuse any nonsensical mistakes or rants. The conversations right now are pointless and bizarre but that's the joy of the party.

I'm looking forward to posting some pictures as soon as I get back to Montreal.

Thank you to everyone who's organized the party and happy fucken new year to everyone!!

"another year over and a new one just begun"

I just sat down for the first time ever since I got home and it feels very nice. Another week end was spent working and sleeping. Not much excitement if you ask me. On the other hand, I've been packing ever since I got home from Tremblant and a rush of excitement struck me. I am leaving tomorrow morning...leaving to Mont Saint-Anne. I'm going away for New Years for a couple of days. I think it will be nice to be away from home for a little while and to let loose...very loose.

2008 was an interesting year... a very interesting year. I've learnt a lot throughout the year and I think I've grown up quite a bit. I started the new year by losing a part of me and will never be able to get it back. Things are often painful but you learn from them and you hope that you'll be able to move on. The first half of the year was filled with ups and very very low downs. Summer was refreshing and was memorable. Late nights spent outdoors, practically living on Mount-Royal, working in Tremblant, meeting a bunch of new people. Autumn...what a beautiful season but it always brings misery. I had a very rough time and I realized some things about people and the way life works out. Obviously, I felt a need for change because life was getting mundane. I've learnt that caring about yourself sometimes is more important than caring for others. Let me tell you, it pays off. Winter is here and I hope it will bring plenty of new joyous moments in the following year. I hope I can learn as mush as I did this year and grow up some more. I've matured both mind and body by letting every little situation make me think twice. Thank you 2008 for being such a bitch at times and yet so good to me.

Happy New Year to everyone since I will not be around for a few days. I hope everyone enjoys their festivities (in a safe manner, of course!) Also, I hope 2009 will take a positive route and turn out to be a good year.

christmas and inner children

I am back to living my normal life again...thankfully. I have finished my twelve days of intense work in a row and I am so grateful that I made it through. It feels nice to know that you earned and worked hard for the money that is now sitting in your bank account. Honestly, I think everyone should go on working sprints from time to time...makes you appreciate the relaxing evenings at home.



Christmas is over and it went by so quickly, similar to all the other years. I didn't spend it with all of my family, which doesn't really matter. I was with the two most important people in my life; my parents. They've given me the gift of life which is a priceless gift. Although, I do appreciate all the material items I've received during the holiday season.


I had a nice evening last night with a good friend that I missed dearly during my working spree. It feels nice to catch up with those who are close to you when you haven't done so in a while. We fooled around with my new camera and had bundles of fun acting silly. Note to all...letting out your inner child feels great from time to time.

Afterwards, I saw some more friends at a little Christmas gathering. I love the holidays because everyone is in such a jolly mood. Shame on those who act like a grinch! I hope all of you have enjoyed your Christmas and any other winter holiday as much as I have.

I'm leaving to go for Tremblant in an hour or so...more catching up with some old friends. I think this will be an interesting week end.

BEFORE &
AFTER

My camera is magical...